its_always_kate's Journal

1:38pm: I need to pick up a fucking hobby.

So bored during the daytime.

My dogs only care to go on so many walks.

2:35am: God,
I'm just so happy.

Everything is just great.

school is almost done.
House is coming soon.
vacay next year.
EVERYONE is having a birthday soon.
21 this year!!
<3

boyyyyy

1:14am: At Least I Can Say I Tried
I couldn't have ever fixed you or saved you or changed you.
You can't blame me for your own problems.
You are the only person who can save you, I know you're capable of whatever you need to do.
I really tried to be your angel but you told me yourself that you already had one.

Another life, another time, another place...wouldn't change anything.
You absolutely had me, heart and soul, mind and body..but somewhere a while back, you lost your grip. Ever since then I've been slipping away and I'm really gone this time.
I really don't want to hurt you, I never wanted to hurt you.

I'm not going to play the blame game here, but we've BOTH said some pretty terrible things to each other and I want you to know that most everything on my end was out of anger or hurt feelings.I don't know how you feel but, I really think you're an amazing guy and an excellent boyfriend{aside from you hating my friends}. We had a great run. We definitely changed each others lives. I wont hold a grudge or have one regret...

I'm not sorry that we happened, I'm not sorry we're over.
I'm not sorry I'm seeing someone else, I'm not sorry that I want to be your friend one day.

I am, however, sad that you don't get to see Cookie as often as you both would like. I want to change this. I don't mean that I want us to hang out right now, but I do want you two to see each other.

On that note:

If life ever gets too hard and you feel too alone: Remember I always have an ear. Seriously, You said we were "boys" before we were ever you+me=us.

"Yes, we really did just have this conversation." You know, just so you don't have to call back and ask.

This is me really just letting go of us as a couple and making a peace offering as friends.

8:11pm: I love thrift shopping with savannah.
I REALLY got some nicole richie glasses and am more excited than anything. It was my prize.
I found my Halloween costime. I'm not telling anyone what it is except Savannah that came with me. Sorry Sucka's.
We went and saw Ross's baby today...well he's 10 months and I've only seen him like 3 times. No good.
He's adorable, obviously. He looks JUST like his daddy :)
I miss Brenden, he should be here by now. ugh.
So I talked to my old job and I was supposed to start working there again on Monday, Clearly...it's not happening. I'm pretty upset about it. I've been poor for like...8 months. I used to be ballin' ALWAYS and I hate being "that" friend now.."Can I borrow 5 bucks" " I can't make it, I don't have any money" "sorry, can you drive, I don't have any gas" UGH I HATE IT.It's actually really embarassing.I'm going to start at sqare one and start looking ALL over again. Maybe I'll just suck it up and be a waitress again.
All I know is that I'm going to chicago in two weeks to see Kelly..poor or not.

I don't know.
please please please, let's work it out. NOW.


If anyone knows of anywhere that's hiring..please let me know. It's important

11:22am: Dear world,
I have more fun than you.
Lovee,
katie :)

5:34pm: Breaking up is hard to do.

Chicago this weekend with my two favorite women. I'm excited beyond belief. I need it. <3

9:59pm: This has been the week from Hell. Hair bullshit, messy houses and suspensions. I'm living this weekend up, so sue me.... everyone else wants to...

3:30pm: job interview on Monday.
Nothing special, but hey...it's money =)

Happy Father's Day to all those papas out there.



Let's go swimming.

3:30pm: put sea salt into spray bottle. Add warm water. Spray on hair.

It gives you amazing waves that look so good, especially on short hair. I'm rockin waves all weekend.

I really want to see 1408. It looks like the scariest thing in movies since I don't know when. I'm gonna do it.

Who wants to double date?

4:04pm: Last night was pretty fucking silly.

Sav Kate & Kel:
Dirty dancing, taking shots, and causing trouble together since 05.


Viva la mafia. Get on our level <3

1:30pm: I hate my brother I hate my brother I hate my brother I hate my brother.

12:24am: I loved vacation. I seriously wish that I could have just sttayed there and lived out of my suitcase for the next 50 years. Seeing Kelly and Savannah was even better though. I swear, time goes by and nothing changes and I love that. I hope to see a lot more of both faces in the future. No matter what. ♥ L-O-V-E is right.

I have to go back to school tomorrow and I worked tonight. My first day back. And it sucked. I had the worst night at work tonight, I dropped two pizzas and only had 3 tables. When can I just start doing hair and nothing else? Tomorrow I don't work and I just want to come home from school go to the gym and take a hot ass bubble bath and watch a movie or something.

ugh..real life.

9:00pm: Love and marriage
I love my new job so much. I love that I'm getting my hair done tomorrow.
I love that I don't work at Denny's anymore! I love that I'm leaving here in 3 days.



Hello Sunshie. Goodbye Michigan.

9:52am: 9 days 9 days 9 days.

I'm already packed. Let's get this show on the road.

This is going to be a great week

9:41am: NASTY!
Never again will I work at a resteraunt open 24 hours that doesn't sell alcohol.

I'm Katie, I work at Denny's. I have a problem.
Never ever go there, even if you loved it before.
I've seen behind the scenes now, and I'm grossed out.
Dirty fingernails. Dirty counters. Dirty dishes. Dirty food. No gloves.
I'm over it.
I'll work and get paid there for the next 2 weeks. Give my 2 weeks notice. Go to Florida for 2 weeks. Then start at Shield's Pizza.

Start making money. Start Selling Booze. Then move into my condo with my baby...and my doggie:)

5:11pm: ice ice baby.
I'm so excited that my mom is back from the hospital today. It was awesome to walk in the front door and see her :) I hated going for "visits" for an hour and then have to leave. Oh momma! <3

Anyhow Brenden is so thoughtful and I absolutely love him. I did his moms hair this weekend and we went shopping. She looks fab, as always. I cut Brenden's hair too. I missed his little bald baby face, he finally got rid of the Osama beard! I got paid in diamonds. He promised me when he got on his feet he'd ice me out. haha. He's well on his way. I got the necklace and my newest edition, my beautiful earrings!! ( love you boo!)


Only a 2 weeks left until Florida!!

excitement.

11:13am: I'm no longer unemployed! I got a job at Denny's today. I mean, it's not the most prestigious job but whatever. That's like an extra 50-100 dollars a week for me so I'm happy as pie =) I just bought a new bathing suit too. Brenden and I also found the most amazing condos, I mean..they COME FURNISHED with IKEA furniture, pots, pans, art, bedsheets, ETC It's a celebration.Anyhow.. I can't wait for Savannah's birthday, I haven't seen her in forever. I can't wait to see Kelly. March and April is full of good stuff and I'm absolutely loving it!

Time for my leftover olga salad. <3 mmmm

6:00pm: It's beautiful out today. I got a job interview. Brenden got a 100$ check for no reason.




life is gooood <3

florida in like 20 days or something.

5:15pm: Weird. I've been getting the same headache/migraine for 2 weeks now every day and it doesn't let up. I think I'm going to hit up my doctor. I swear, we're becoming like BFFs. I'm there every week.

On a happier note.. FLorida is SO soon. Less than a month away now. I've never been more excited for a vacation EVER. I can't wait to bask in the sun, get a beautiful bronze glow, have my new hair all done, and to take lots of pictures with gramps. <3 I just hope it doesn't get warm here the day I leave. I want it to be a blizzard of epic proportions here when I land in Florida. At least for a day. (sorry guys!) But when my car rolls back into the mitten I want to see flowers and sunshine. I'll bring back some beach sand for good measure. I still have a lot to do before I go. (SHOP!) I have nothing at all to wear as far as summer clothes go. That dieting kind of screwed up my wardrobe. Ah well. Time to make dinner plans

6:48pm: P.S welcome back to the D, Jess! ♥

6:44pm: Finger lickin good
I'm pretty sure I just ate the most satisfying KFC meal I've had since I found a lung in my chicken. Seriously, I did. I now stick strictly to strips and slaw baby, strips and slaw. Then I jumped on my ab-lounge for a great little mini "I-don't-have-to-feel-really-guilty-about-eating-KFC-goodness" workout. I feel full and muscle sore so thats a good thing. I have a date tonight I'm really excited about. I think I'm going to dress really cute for Brenden. He deserves to have a sex kitten on his arm once in a while. <3 Off to get ready. 23 is going to be a great movie =)

5:30pm: Curls.Hoops.Red lipstick.


It's my new look. Let's get it together.

6:51pm: I'm drowning in debt. Let's fast forward please.

11:42pm: revelation
I can't believe how naive I've been, this weekend proved to me that holding onto relationships that have been gone for a while now is pointless. The process of "growing apart" is really confusing. At first you don't even realize it's happening but you stop seeing people as much, none of you feel like REALLY picking up the phone to call one another and then one day...you're strangers. Sometimes you feel sad, sometimes you don't. I really feel like once a friendship grows apart it's really hard and nearly impossible to rekindle to the same level you were at before. I guess I just feel pessimistic lately about the whole "best friends" deal. It's all bs to me. I mean, every best friend (girl) I've ever had isn't around right now. It's always like..."well we just grew apart". I hate it and I don't trust people. You put so much in and you have so much trust...somehow things always change. It's inevitable. I think I've accepted this.


I'm just glad I got my army of one with me always♥

9:43am: There's no school today and I couldn't be more excited about that.
I totally had a Valentines day fantasy that only came half true. Yesterday I was hoping we'd get a snowday so everyone could just stay home with their valentine and have a love-in. So..I got the snow day but Brenden decided to go to work. Whatever.
I guess I'll just clean the house and probably make a candle light dinner for my mom and dad. Yeah, i'm a sweetheart.